A bit too much?

I believe utopias could never exist, at least not for very long. It is more of a fantasy or solitary place.  It's inane to think such a place with social, political, and governmental perfection could exist. Society couldn't work like that, no two men would have the same thoughts and eventually circumstances will arise.  There would never be a real utopia because as people we thrive on being the best, or better than the next person. How can any place no matter the size require no perfection when there is always a search for approval. Man will always seek some form of "you did good". Although it is not perfection per say, it is some form of it. It would be an idealists vision of perfection. Same with political/governmental/law perfection. The streets would eventually go rampant, because everyone wants more than they can handle, always searching for something greater and never content with what is in front of them. I guess for me a utopia is really in ones mind, once you add to it, it becomes less of a utopia and more of a society searching for meaning.

Trust

Trust; -noun

1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; 

confidence. 2. confident expectation of something; hope.

What is trust anymore? [as far as the kind we put/give into people] I can’t recall if I have or haven’t touched on this topic, so I shall do it now. I don’t get it, why is it so hard for some people and easy for others? I thought for a while I could trust so easily, but maybe in some way I was wrong. Thinking about it lately, I’ve been questioning. How can anyone trust, how is something so simple, so hard to do? Why do we, as human beings make such things so difficult? As far as trusting and allowing others to trust us. To me it’s easier said than done. It’s easy to promise feelings of a high, feelings of such great measures in the moment. What happens when the high is over, do our promises and words become invalid and fade away? Why should we get that privilege? Why should we be allowed to go back on our promises because our minds change? “It happens”, “people change”, “sometimes its just not meant to be”…all excuses and disguises of us being crowned liars, because in the end, to me, that is what we are. Like I said, what gives us the right to just throw all our promises away and simply walk away because we grow apart from a person? YES it DOES happen, but we shouldn’t say things we don’t mean, no matter how in love we perceive to be at any moment in time. These are my opinions, so think whatever the hell you want, but I know a little part of you agree’s with me, a part of you feels what I’m saying because you’ve been in this position. We can’t help it, were human and we crave affection, we need it like its a drug. We want that closeness, it may not be all the time, i know some people like to be proud of the fact that they are single and can do whatever the hell they want, but no one can sit and tell me, that at the end of the day when they’re sitting alone in their head they aren’t thinking to themselves that they don’t want that love, that indescribable feeling of knowing theres someone in your life that means something more. so we trust and most time it just goes, just like that. We are left in pain and hurt from feelings changed, from wondering what could have possibly changed? But what would we do if we didn’t put so much hope and trust into someone? Maybe we would have nothing to really hold onto, nothing to try for, because we have to try, at the least we can try. even if all these things do happen, even if we say the things that could eventually turn us into liars, at least we can say we gave it a shot, sometimes our minds and most often our hearts give in, we give into that animal instinct and just go for the kill. We dive in because we all want to be happy, we all want that better half, someone we can call all our own. So we try, and we hope, hope to keep going, hope that the trust we give and receive won’t be for nothing. Thats all we really can do. Nothing is ever promised unfortunately, we can only hope for the best and expect the worst. Sometimes, our trust and our hope won’t fail, at least, we have that to look forward to. 

Can I?

Can I be saved from myself when I'm the one causing my own destruction?! JK...or am I?

In a world where everything is handed to us, yet it is. it's hard growing up right anymore. its hard to know when we've reached our limit. as an adult i still dont feel grown. when is it that time to call myself a real adult, i feel like a trapped child inside, deprived of most of mine, i wouldnt go back. even though i semi hate who i am today, i would have to say i cant go back it would void out who i am today to change the past. sadly i couldnt imagine myself any of other way, but sadly i know i could be better if i put my mind to it. so why havent i done it? a question im still waiting for myself to answer.

WHAT ROLE DOES A BEST FRIEND PLAY IN PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS…

Alright let me explain here what i mean. Best friends, are in no way a reflection of the amount of time you have known a person, instead, the amount of trust, comfortability, and what you put into the friendship. a best friend means a lot to people, we open up to them more than anyone else, and know they will understand us no matter what and we always trust them back and value everything they have to say. They want whats best for you and you want whats best for them.
Now, what happens when you get into a relationship? Do they continue that same role, do you continue to put as much emphasis on them as you did before you found a new love interest? Usually theres an even mix. nothing has to change. So, what happens when you find someone you really like and you start seeing them, nothing serious. but, then you and your best friend talk and they start saying stuff about your new interest when they hardly know them, and other information from other people about the new love. i know its your best friend and you listen to them and trust them, but what would you do? would you just call it quits and tell your new interest that its over. plain and simple that its over, best friends want whats best and thats it so your done. idk, to be honest, i could confront the person and see whats up. let them tell their side and see what would happen. people could change though for real. like we cant take peoples faults of the past and hold it against them. the example i just gave you is real, so dont think i made it up, it inspired this post. i thought it was a lil to much to be honest. i trust my friends, my best friends, but sometimes when it comes to a personal relationship a person you want to be close with in that intimate way, you have to take a chance, like i said, confront them, ask question, find out their intentions, give them a chance, and if you feel you still need to leave then do so. but if not then fine your done. i dont think it would be a diss against a friend either, you hear them out and act on it. nothing wrong with that. anyway i guess thats all i have to say about that for now. what are your thoughts on it all?